Flawed Perfection

hmf

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 19:59:44 GMT

why did they do a study and the found out that a white male who has been convicted of a felony is more likely to get a job than a black male who has no record.

and people say discrimination and racism is no big deal anymore right??

house keeping

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 16:17:21 GMT

what i fail to understand is how do I have 6 people listed as friends, but yet their 16 people who list me as their friends, like they didnt get cut a minute ago.

so to the following please remove me from your friends list:

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babii_boo :: blazinbrowneyez ::browncomplex :: chinaeyes :: lady_sekmet :: layandeat :: luvya2pieces :: tippy_cup_ella ::xiloveducks :: yr_toxic

thanks a bunch.

the "letter"

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 16:53:31 GMT

i never typed up the letter mark wrote to me the day before he left here u go:

To Beauti

In life, you wonder about things that can either "be" or not. The thoughts of individuals, when interpreted by another, will develop into an enigma for starters. You can say words, but dont expect neophytes to comprehend your dialect. Everyday speech demands clarification and explaination because when you spea, you understand yourself ("they dont"). We often live in a dream world full of anticipitations, hopes, and dreams. Figemts of the imagination are fabricated in the mind, soul, and heart. In order for dreams to ferment ito reality, it takes 2, even though one of the "2" has a different dream than you. Humans are capable of love, passion, and pleasure; so why not indulge? The problem is the emotions which may become tangled. It's not enough to love someone to show affection. The strongest human emotion is "like" because liking someone requires compassion, sincerity, devotion, and acceptance. Love is a facade becayse it requires an adjective, meaning that love is expressly stated and "like" is demonstarted and showed in actions. Love isnt an action, its a code of ethic and order, a way to act, being "in love", it's just a behavior. "Like" is an attitude, demanor, swagga, and style. Love is a written contract and "like" is a speech. Vioations and infractions are comitted when contract is broken, meaning that love was never meant. The "like" is spoken and explained, so it's theoretically "written in stone" (so thier is no misunderstanding or discrepancy). So, I bid you a fare-well and I like you.

-Mark/Mike aka Mizzark aka Sleepy

do u guys understand why i say i will marry this boy???

im leaving this a public entry cause everyone needs to read this shit

Halt!

Mon, 04 Aug 2003 14:05:16 GMT

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the prettiest of them all?
I fix my make up, I fix my hair
im so beautifull, but i dont care
im that girl you love to hate
im pretty, popular, and always have a good date
If only you can see
what it's like to be me
Im dying inside slowly
so this is why this has to be friends only!

Chronic Liar

Sun, 03 Aug 2003 14:26:56 GMT

I went to see Mark/Mike yesterday. This boy is cute for real you cant deny it. Alright to get from harlem to the part of the bronx he lives at is like 40mins. So i take the subway all crazy and I finally get their, and i call him and im like aight im at the station come get me, then he is talking a whole lot and his like uh i got to go do something real quick so could u wait for me in micky d's and then i'll get u. This was 4. So i end up waiting till 4:30, and boy was i pissed. So he comes in, but the minute i see him all my anger melts away because im just like damn this boy looks good.

He has such a crazy personality too, my hair is curly right now, and i was wearing these gangsta ass platinum and diamond drop earings, and he was mad hyped about it. He was like oh shoot, oh shoot, you came out with the curly hair with some killar earings.

So we were in his house and son we were just straight talking for like 3 hours about everything. College, highschool, people we know, everything. I met his twin sister they look nothing alike, she was asking mad questions. Like if we go out and stuff i was like nah. He was like ok thats enough, goodbye and he kicked her out and locked the door. He is so childlike, like he is one of those boys who will be talking then like hit your arm, or push you. It's like wow how old are we 5, the whole i like u so im going to hit you and run jumpoff, its cute though.

I came to see him in my jersey dress, and he was like i was really doing it up hard. He said that i was pretty sexxy, and he didnt realize how sexy i was. He says in atlanta he is going to have to watch out for me, cause these boys arent ready. And he was like that i cant party too much in college, i got to do my work and shit, unless im going to be partying with him.

Did you guys know a chronic liar, is someone who starts to believe their lies. I think I am one. Everything I say to this boy about college is such a lie, im a junior in highschool, i will not be in atlanta with him. I wish it really was true though, i wish it was. I wanna marry this boy it's so serious. He is cute, has a nice personality, smart[ he uses the illlest vocabulary, it kills me] and can dress and likes me and thinks im sexy and funny! Thats everything I want in a guy. Damn, why couldnt i been born in '84.

I got a picture of him, im going to put it in my locker when i go back to school. He really is cute!!!

bad girlfriend

Fri, 01 Aug 2003 03:03:47 GMT

i am a bad girlfriend. Ant invited me to go to ruckers park today to watch him play ball, his game was at 8. So i say yea i can go. So today at like 7:30 he calls me off some number so i didnt know it was him. so he's talking and im like who's dis and he is like Ant. but im a dumb ass of course and i didnt think i knew any Ant's, so then he says his last name and is like your boyfriend. so i just start laughing to play it off. u guys, 2 bad i really didnt know it was him in the begining. so i was feeling bad for that. he wanted to know when i was comming down, and i told him i was on my way.

so then i get their with latoya and im on the phone with niki. and i see him, im still talking on the phone, i give him a hug, and keep it moving then turn around and im like good luck.this is like 7:50 so then i go up the street cause their having a jazz fest and a bbq and just everyone is there. u guys by the time i came back down to the park he was playing at [10ish] the game was already over and i guess he left. do u know how fucking bad and dumb , i felt because i know he really wanted me to see him play and i completely blew him off, to hang out with other people, that he dosent even get down with like that.

im a horrible girlfriend.

updated my website

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 20:58:00 GMT

I updated my website today, changed the layout. So you all have to go and take a look at it, okay.

http://www.flawed.mirrorz.com/

tell all your friends. email me thousands of times [flawedperfectionist@hotmail.com] i wanna know who's out there in the cyberworld thats looking at my life. instant message me on aim, playachic1. i wanna see whats good with the online crowd, cause my real life is too crazy right now, i need to lay low, u know.

there not in jail!

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 18:31:25 GMT

My freakiness score is: 90
Are you a freak?
Find out your freakiness level.

damn you guy's i guess im not a freak. im at level 1, thats horrible. lol.

i have good news thought. jigga and andre arent going to jail. there sentencing was yesterday and they just got off on probation, thank god!!!!

in august im going to maryland, to visit my cousens. There pretty chill. There's one girl she's my age(well im a year older than her, but since i have a late birthday u know) she's cool and all but she is somewhat jealous of me. I visited them like 2 years ago and every single time we went somewhere a boy would try to holla at me, so that just amazed her, and i got a lot of attention from boys down there, so u know how that goes with females. Then there is a boy, he should be like 11 or 12 now, he is just great. Like if i had a little brother i wish it was him. He's the level headed one and shit. Then there's a little one who is like 8 or 9, she is just like me when i was younger, a spoiled brat, who wants all the attention. so that was crazy, cause your dealing with someone who is just like you when your younger.

but yo the boys i met in maryland, where whats up!! Some true cuties!!! i met my future husband down there, i dont even remember his name, but i know if i ever see him again it's a wrap. I met him at 6 flags, in the water park. He was sexy!

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	blackicebeauti User Number: 1019490 Date Created:2003-04-22 Number of Posts: 29
-beauty the quality or aggregate of qualities in a person or thing that gives pleasure to the senses or pleasurably exalts the mind or spirit : LOVELINESS :x:X::x:X::x:X::x:X: -Beauti A model chic thats 5'9,has brown eyes,is black and dominican, slim, smart, outspoken, loud, funny, real. My name is Beauti, get over it. I will not let it define me, but I will define my beauty for all to see.
Strengths: my beauty, my soul, my heart, my thoughts, my courage
Weaknesses: food, cute boys, bad boys,
Special Skills: Smartness, understanding, my body, all country track champion in 4X4 and highjump
Weapons: my mind, my body
Main Characters: Beauti-me:x:X: Sade- my best friend:x:X: Latoya-My closest friend:x:X: Ant- my boyfriend:x:X: Randy- my jumpoff:x:X: Nicole- good friend

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shopping and the block is hot!

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 22:53:56 GMT

i have 50$, so i think i shall go for a lil mini shopping day. i need a skirt, and then prob a shirt to go with it and matching flip flops, thats like exactly 50$ and then sum change to get food.

im on the phone with Sade right now and she is basiclly telling me her problems with her man. It's look like to me that her man is acting shady towards her, she's calling and calling him, and he isnt returning her call and then when she does talk to him and is like lets go chill he's always "busy".

yo the block is fucking crazy right now. everyone is fucking getting locked up. jigga got 5-10 years for fucking agravated gang related assalt and drug possesion and dealing, a fucking felony son. he is 19 years old. so by the time he comes out he will be 24, damn son! its a wrap for him. Larry is locked up too, but he is only 17, i dont know who long he is going to be in. apparently him and jigga had beat up this boy till he was unconcious. they got jigga and then jigga ratted on larry. thats some bullshit.

But im convinced it was a fucking sting opperation. They fucking raided Jigga's apartment, he's a drug dealing so they found mad shit. He deals in weed, coke, and water. He isnt a hardcore dealer so they didnt find that much, but they found enough to lock his ass up and charge him with MAD shit!

Phones have been tapped for like the last 3 months. My cell phone is tapped all crazy. They put camera's in front of all the buildings on the block and we got some crooked as cops, out here. This one cop Steve Pitzanni(yeah im putting his full name on fucking blast) its the crookest cop i have ever seen in my life. He's fucking in on the drug buisness, he gets 30% from this other kid Shorey. He sold arnold a fucking bullet proof vest then busted his ass for it 2 weeks later. So Jigga is up north doing hard time. Larry, and arnold are in juvie, hopefully for only a couple of months. And niggaz are straight missing. Maybe they laying low, or they got picked up, but we all definitley know that the block is hot as a mutherfucka right now!

I hate the fucking boys! They hastling people for no reason

friends

Mon, 30 Jun 2003 22:44:11 GMT

Randy is my nigga! Do you guys even understand this. No seriously he is my friend for real, yes he might want to sex me up a little bit, but were friends for real. I was hanging out with him all day today from 1-5:30. I've never really hung out with him one on one befor, so it was mad chill.

He didnt even you know really try nothing with me the whole day. We were just talking, honestly and laughing. He's deep. He was telling me about his family and shit. I really want him to feel like he can trust me and he can speak to me on that deeper level, cause you can tell he has shit underneath it all that he needs to talk about.

He likes my body, I'll give yall that.Like we'll be hugging or something and he'll be caressing my sides and my stomach and stuff. He has uh very magical hands i'll give you that. For the "gangsta" he is supposed to be, he has a very soft touch. I like him, as a friend of course. of course.

But to my baby Ant, he loves me. He told me yesterday.He was like he figured it out like 2 weeks ago, when he goes to sleep he thinks about me, when he closes his eyes he see's me. I was like why do you love me, he was like well "your gourgeous(of course u know i was wayyy to gassed) your always laughing and smiling, i love your smile, you were with me on my birthday. That was a really big thing for me. No girl has ever been with me on my birthday. You went to dinner with me and my family, I mean I know I would have liked if me and you just you know... but still it was great" He loves me for real you guys, everyone knows it, you can tell how he looks at me. Wow, it makes me feel really great to know that he loves me. I dont love him though. Like, I do like him, dont get me wrong, but love is a big thing. But I do know that im going to try and be a better girlfriend, thats for sure.

Sade, she's my best friend, but she is turning out to be a real judgemental bitch. I call her today while im on the block, and she is like what u doing, so im like im hanging on the block with some peeps. And she is like oh your hanging with losers. WHOA MA!!!! You dont know none of these guys, who the hell are you to judge them and call them losers. Expecially when the guys you hung out with were super whack. Fake ass gangsta spanish boys, who werent holding shit, and were young but still tried to run a game on you and hoe you out. And there still disrespecting you hard on the street, cause you wont even get an acnologment from them that they know you. Those are some true losers. They were whack from the jump and now you come out of your mouth and you call people you dont even know losers. You dont be the fuck out here, how dare you judge them! That got me tight!

hey im smart!!

Mon, 23 Jun 2003 00:21:28 GMT

hey yall i got a 98 on my global regents!!!!! wooohooo!!! i was so excited, i mean i expected to do well, but a 98, thats almost a perfect score. thats whats up!